Why do you let me feel so weak sometimes?
When I’m weak physically – with a stomach ache or a headache – I’m weak emotionally and spiritually, too. Then it’s so, so hard to do all that I need to do, to be all that I need to be. Last night I was so uncomfortable that I couldn’t make dinner. The chicken was thawed, the carrots were ready to steam…..but I couldn’t do it because my head was throbbing. Alyssa wanted to read a book with me but I couldn’t do it because I couldn’t concentrate through the blinding pain behind my eyes.
Weakness doesn’t fly very well with me. I don’t like it. I don’t want to be forced to tolerate it. But sometimes weakness happens and when it does, I wonder if it’s your way of making me slow down. Your way of making me be still. Your way of saying “Lean on me. Draw from MY strength because my strength is perfect in your weakness.”
In 2 Corinthians 12, you tell me “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
So this is me boasting about my weaknesses: yay for me and my headaches and stomach aches. Woo hoo.
Seriously though, if you can somehow display your power through me during those times when I feel like cow dung, please do it. I know full well that I need you every second of every day – whether I’m feeling terrific or terrible. So when I’m weak, I will be still. And I will exalt you and trust you and draw on your strength. And thank you for making me slow down and just be, secure in the knowledge that you never leave or forsake me. Secure in your promise that you care for me.
In Jesus’ Name,